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The breath Shannon had been holding came out in a ragged sigh.
Lightning raked the mountain peaks that rose around the clearing. Wind surged, bending delicate aspens whose branches were still bare of leaves. With the wind came a prolonged rumble of thunder and a quicksilver taste of rain.
«You shouldn’t have interfered,» Shannon said earnestly. «The last man who stood up for me against the Culpeppers got stomped so bad that he died.»
Gray eyes narrowed.
«Those boys have the manners of a wolverine,» Whip said.
«I tried to warn you.»
«And I tried to warn them. They didn’t listen. So as Caleb would say, I read to them from the Book. Maybe they’ll listen better in the future.»
Shannon’s dark eyes jerked toward the braided leather coils riding so comfortably on Whip’s powerful shoulder. She hadn’t seen the lash strike Beau, but she knew it had. At the first sight of blood on a Culpepper mouth, she had grabbed her supplies and run for old Razorback.
«Caleb?» Shannon asked.
It was the only thing she could think of to say, for the smile was gone from Whip’s face. Now he was looking at her like she was food and he was a man who had gone hungry far too long.
What frightened Shannon was how much a part of her wanted to ease this one man’s hunger.
I’m still scared after what happened in town, Shannon told herself stoutly. Tomorrow I’ll go see Cherokee. Then I won’t feel so alone that a stranger’s smile turns my heart upside down and makes my knees shaky.
«Caleb Black,» Whip explained gently, «is my sister Willow’s husband. They have a ranch west of here. So does my brother Reno, and his wife, Eve.»
«Oh.»
Shannon forced herself to breathe normally. Her hands ached from being clenched around the heavy shotgun, but she wasn’t about to put the weapon down. She had seen how terrifyingly fast that bullwhip could move.
«I’m Shannon Conner, uh, Smith,» she said. Then added hastily, «Smith is my married name.»
Whip frowned as though he didn’t like the reminder that she was married.
«Is it all right if I get down and give you the supplies you left behind?»
«All right?» she asked, perplexed.
«The shotgun,» Whip said gently.
«Oh. That.»
Whip made no attempt to hide his amusement at his effect on Shannon Conner Smith.
«Yes,» he said in a deep voice. «That.»
Shannon flushed.
And she kept the shotgun’s muzzle where it was, pointing just in front of Whip’s horse.
«Go ahead,» Shannon said. «Get whatever Murphy figured he couldn’t cheat me out of.»
Whip dismounted with a muscular grace that did nothing to set Shannon’s mind at ease.
Lord above, this is one dangerous man.
Beautiful, too.
The second thought was so startling to Shannon that she almost laughed out loud.
I must be going cabin happy. Flowers are beautiful, and butterflies, and a baby’s smile.
Whip isn’t like those things.
Lightning burned whitely across the indigo base of clouds whose towering heads were still washed in crimson light. The mountain wore the storm with the muscular ease of a man carrying a bullwhip coiled on his shoulder.
But mountains are beautiful, too. And thunderheads. And lightning burning through the storm.
Whip is like that. Lightning and storm and a mountain’s strength.
Prettyface’s rippling snarl brought Shannon’s wandering attention back to the clearing.
Whip was walking toward her.
But instead of the small parcels of baking soda and lard she had expected, his big arms were filled to overflowing with supplies.
«Hold it, Mr. Whip.»
The shotgun was no longer pointing at Whip’s horse.
Whip stopped where he was.
«My name is Rafael Moran,» he said calmly, «but call me Whip if you’d rather.»
«It’s how I’ve been thinking of you,» she said.
«Have you?»
«What?»
«Been thinking of me?»
Shannon blushed, realizing what she had admitted.
Whip smiled and started toward her again.
«I said hold it!» she ordered.
«I’m already holding as much as I can,» Whip said reasonably, «but I’ll try.»
Shannon bit her lips against an urge to smile, to laugh, to put away the shotgun and trust the big stranger who seemed as familiar to her as her own breath.
Why didn’t Cherokee ever tell me I would react like this to a man? Lord above, no wonder women do fool things for men.
At least, for men like Whip.
«Don’t come any closer,» she said grimly. «Prettyface doesn’t like strangers.»
Whip blinked. «Prettyface?»
«My hound.»
Whip looked at the huge, snarling animal whose head came up to Shannon’s breasts.
«That’s Prettyface?» he asked.
«Of course. Or maybe you’d like to be the one to tell him he’s ugly?»
There was an instant of silence. Then Whip threw back his head and laughed with surprise and delight.
A ripple of pleasure went through Shannon at the sound. Whip’s laughter was even more beautiful than his smile.
«Prettyface it is,» Whip agreed. «You’d have to be dumb as a roomful of Culpeppers to call that brute anything else.»
This time Shannon couldn’t help smiling.
«Where do you want your supplies?» Whip asked.
Her smile vanished.
«They aren’t mine,» Shannon said flatly.
«That isn’t what Murphy said.»
«Murphy wouldn’t know the truth if it wore a sign.»
Whip smiled again. «Can’t argue that. So think of this as Murphy’s apology for all the times he kept his dirty thumb on the scales when he was weighing your supplies.»
With a hunger Shannon couldn’t entirely conceal, she looked at the sacks of beans and flour, bacon and dried apples, salt and spices, and other things she had gone so long without she could hardly remember their names.
Abruptly Shannon looked away from the bounty that was being offered to her. Her throat worked as she swallowed, for just the thought of food was enough to make her mouth water.
«I’ll take the baking soda and lard I paid for, and thank you for your trouble,» she said tightly. «You can take the rest back.»
Just as Whip started to speak, lightning slashed through the condensing night. Thunder rumbled, closer now. The air itself tasted of sleet. The storm was closing in on Shannon’s clearing, bringing the icy rains of high-country summer.
«If you think I’m going to ride all the way back to Holler Creek in this weather,» Whip said, «you’re crazy.»
«Where you go is your business. What you take with you is mine.»
For a long time there was no sound but that of the twilight storm, of wind rushing and trees bending, thunder growling, the muted drumroll of rain beating against the mountain with tiny silver hammers.
«You need the food,» Whip said bluntly. «You’re too thin.»
Shannon didn’t bother to deny it. She had lost so much weight during the past winter she could barely get Silent John’s cast-off clothes to stay on her. If it hadn’t been for the pronounced flare of her hips, Shannon would have found the pants around her knees every time she moved.
But Whip doesn’t have the right to notice something that personal, much less to take it upon himself to feed me.
Both Cherokee and Silent John had repeatedly warned Shannon about the problems that would come if she allowed herself to get beholden to a man during Silent John’s frequent absences. Shannon couldn’t allow herself to owe a man anything. Even a man with a smile like a fallen angel.
Perhapsespeciallynot that man.
When Whip saw the determined line of Shannon’s mouth, he knew before she spoke th
at she was going to refuse the supplies. That made him angry, but what really triggered his temper was the fact that he couldn’t force Shannon to take so much as a single bite of the food he had brought for her.
He had no right to take care of Shannon. Only her husband had that privilege, and obviously the man was no damned good at it.
«Think of it as a loan,» Whip said through clenched teeth.
«No.»
«Hell’s fire,» Whip snarled, «you’re so weak you can hardly hold that shotgun up!»
«I’m not too weak to pull the trigger.»
The sound Prettyface made then echoed Whip’s anger, a low rumbling like a storm coming.
Whip got a grip on his temper. The last thing he wanted to do was fight Shannon’s dog. As a way to get into a girl’s good graces, thumping on her dog was a losing strategy.
Besides, the damned beast was as big as a barn.
Yet, even knowing that, Whip had to struggle with his desire to yank the shotgun out of Shannon’s hands, clout the dog a good one, and then sit Shannon down to a real meal.
Realizing that his temper was at flash point shocked Whip. Normally he was the easygoing Moran and his brother Reno was the hardheaded one. But there was something about Shannon’s sheer stubbornness that put the spurs to Whip’s temper.
«There’s no harm in accepting a hand now and again,» Whip said, forcing himself to speak gently.
«Cherokee, the shaman, told me that men tame mustangs by offering them food when they’re hungry and water when they’re thirsty. Of course, the men run the mustangs nearly to death first, so they get plenty hungry and thirsty. Then the men offer the mustangs a hand — with a rope in it.»
Humor briefly softened the planes of Whip’s face.
«That’s one way to do it,» he agreed.
But Wolfe Lonetree taught me a better way, Whip remembered. You stay on the edges of the mustang’s senses, not crowding, not rushing, until the wild thing gets used to having you around. Then you get closer and the mustang gets nervous and you stop until you teach it to accept you at that distance.
And then you go closer and wait and go closer and wait and go closer until finally the sweet little beauty is eating right out of your hand.
Of course, damned few mustangs are worth that much trouble.
The wind swept down, billowing Shannon’s loose clothes one moment and molding them to her body the next.
Whip’s breath stopped. Shannon might have looked skinny, but underneath that frayed cloth were the kind of curves that would keep a man awake at night, thinking of new ways to get close to her.
Really close.
Damnation. If she were mine, I sure as hell wouldn’t be off chasing gold or hunting men. I’d be right next to her, seeing how many ways we could pleasure each other.
And I’d keep at it until we both were too tired to lick our lips.
«Shannon…»
As Whip spoke, lightning arced in white violence across half the sky. Thunder battered the mountains until the ground trembled. In the calm that followed, a rushing sound swept across the clearing toward the cabin, rain streaming down in wild silver veils.
Whip was fascinated by the beauty of the storm racing down toward him, but he wasn’t deceived. He knew all about the seductive, deadly beauty of the Rocky Mountain high country. Though it was early summer, at this altitude sunset brought a sharp chill to the air. By moonrise it would be freezing. By morning there might be snow chest-high on a Montana horse. The snow could be gone by the next day.
Or it could stay for a month, as it had late this spring.
The little bit of supplies Shannon had would barely keep her alive for two weeks.
«Where the hell is your husband?» Whip asked in exasperation. «You need him!»
Shannon hoped it was too dark for Whip to see the alarm in her eyes. Cherokee was right. Whatever had happened to make Silent John disappear, men had to believe that Silent John was still alive, still likely to appear without warning, still able to bring down a buck or a man at three thousand yards.
«Silent John is wherever he is,» Shannon said flatly.
«Word in Holler Creek is that you’re a widow,» Whip retorted. «Word is that Silent John is dead and you’re starving all alone in this miserable, godforsaken clearing!»
Prettyface snarled.
Whip felt like snarling right back.
Shannon said not one word. She simply stood with her feet braced and the shotgun steady in her aching arms.
Sudden, heavy rain drenched the clearing, dousing all the colors of sunset. Within moments cold water was dripping from Whip’s dark Stetson and beading up on the heavy wool of his jacket.
Shannon had the shelter of the cabin’s eaves, but it wasn’t enough to turn the cutting wind. She shivered as the first raw blast of rain pelted her.
«Be sensible,» Whip said, forcing his voice to be even.
«I am. You’re the one who’s been puffing on the dream-pipe.»
«Murphy has been cheating you for years,» Whip said, ignoring Shannon’s retort. «When I pointed that out, he decided he could fatten up your supplies some. That’s all there was to it. No obligation on your part at all.»
Shannon opened her mouth.
Whip just kept talking. «You don’t need to worry about being obligated to me for bringing the supplies, either. I was going to check out the Avalanche Creek gold fields and your cabin was on the way.»
«That’s a nice story,» Shannon said, wishing she could believe it. «But I’ve heard it before. I’m not looking for help from women-hungry men.»
Whip’s hold on his temper slipped as the cold rain lashed one side of his face and the truth lashed the other.
«I’m not like the others,» Whip said through his teeth.
«Do tell,» Shannon said coolly. «Does that mean you don’t want me?»
Whip opened his mouth, then closed it. Lying simply wasn’t his style.
«I want you,» he said flatly.
Shannon couldn’t control the shiver that went through her at Whip’s blunt words.
«But I’d never force you, Shannon,» he said gently. «That’s a promise.»
«I’ll make that promise easy for you to keep. Mount up and ride.»
«Listen,» Whip began.
«No, you listen,» Shannon said tightly. «You’re just like all the others. You want my body and not one other damned thing. No offers of marriage and kids and sharing good times and bad for the rest of our lives. All you want is a few minutes in the dark with the ‘poor little dear’ who might or might not be a widow.»
«It’s not just that,» Whip said angrily.
«Oh? Does that mean you’re offering marriage along with the rutting?»
The look on Whip’s face told Shannon more than she wanted to know. Her short laugh was as bitterly cold as the rain.
«That’s what I thought,» she said. «Thank you, but no thank you. I’ve got everything I need until Silent John gets back.»
«What if he never gets back? Damn it, what if he’s dead? What then?»
Shannon’s finger tightened on the shotgun’s double trigger. Hearing her own fears spoken by Whip’s deep, angry voice reinforced them.
And undermined her.
Don’t argue with him, Shannon warned herself. You’ll lose. Then you’ll be like those two sad whores in Whiskey Flat, with every man in Colorado Territory knowing the color of your nipples.
«You earned the name Whip,» Shannon said harshly, «but even you aren’t faster than a shotgun shell. So take your supplies and your hungry silver eyes and ride out.»
To Shannon it seemed like a week before Whip finally turned around and began loading supplies back onto his skinny black packhorse.
Lightning split the rainy twilight, turning the world to burning silver. Thunder followed instantly, loud enough to drown out all other sounds. Rain came down harder and then harder still, a torrent fit to put out the fires of hell.
Though Whip was onl
y twelve feet away, Shannon had to strain to see him. She blinked her eyes fiercely, knowing she must see through tears and rain alike.
When lightning came again, the clearing was empty.
Whip was gone.
Shannon bit her lip against the urge to scream Whip’s name into the teeth of the storm, calling him back, offering him whatever he wanted in return for food and safety.
And she knew exactly what he wanted.
The Culpeppers had made what men wanted savagely clear to Shannon on more than one occasion. What men wanted was to bend her over a chair and rut on her until she begged and bled and begged some more.
The thought of it made her stomach clench, sending bile into her throat.
Maybe Whip wouldn’t ask that of me. Maybe he did just want to help and wouldn’t have asked for anything more than thanks and a home-cooked meal.
Then Shannon remembered Whip’s words and the heat in his silver glance. She gave up trying to fool herself.
Whip wants me, all right. Just like the Culpeppers want me.
Shannon shuddered and felt cold all the way to her soul. Nothing in her experience had led her to believe that women did more than endure men’s brutal rutting in exchange for shelter and food and safety.
And children. Sweet-faced little bits of humanity to sing to and cuddle and love.
Prettyface whined and set his teeth gently around Shannon’s hand, reminding her of his presence. It also reminded Shannon that she was standing in the icy evening rain, feeling as empty as the clearing had become when Whip rode out.
Stop dreaming, Shannon told herself savagely. Mother dreamed, and what did she get? A no-account traveling man who left her flat.
And she got me. I loved her, but all she loved was laudanum.
Cherokee is right. Love is a fairy tale spun to keep women from setting off on their own and leaving men to take care of themselves.
Slowly Shannon turned and went into the cabin that was little warmer than the rain itself.
3
When Shannon awoke before dawn, the storm had spent itself. Night was slowly draining from the sky, leaving it a transparent silver that reminded her all too much of Whip’s hungry eyes.
Prettyface made a low sound in his throat and nudged Shannon’s cheek again.
«Brrrrrr,» she muttered. «Your nose is as cold as the floor will be.»